And, I just realized that I have achieved the greatest of accomplishments....
I survived.
I must admit, however, this year was far from productive and conducive to actually living my life and feeling any semblance of being alive.I spent most days and nights alone in my small one bedroom apartment.
If I went anywhere, it was to work, therapy sessions, the grocery store, or to spend time with the one person that I can and always will call a friend.
As I look back on it all, I can barely even remember where the last year of my twenties went or who I really spoke to, shared my thoughts with, gave my heart to or made memories with, because in reality....I didn't.
The only person I truly and deeply fell in love with this year was myself.
I found my voice again. Found solace within all the darkness I have in my soul. Embraced the depths and layers of my mind...and found beauty between all of them.
From all of it...I have found creativity and a language only I understand.
(I hope one day I will find someone that has patience enough to listen)
I found the paradox that I have so much love inside of me that it hurts, but despite the pain....I have only more love to give....and I will NEVER give up.
I also found that, although, I am indeed a cynic...I have the ability to trust and allow myself to be open to whatever life throws my way.
Simply because....I have and continue to survive.So, cheers to you 2013. You have been a blessing to my life. I never thought I would have come this far.
I believe that 2014 and 2015 and so forth can only become more eye opening from here......
Bravo!
ReplyDelete