But, why Amy?Well, to be honest...I'm afraid. Pouring my feelings out onto a screen is not an easy thing all the time. Especially when every single time I write, I get judged for what I think. This doesn't only happen when it comes to my words.
More often than not, I'm NOT happy. I don't feel fabulous. I don't feel great...fuck, I don't even feel okay with myself. It's a struggle to make it through the day sometimes without wanting to throw in the towel or run to the nearest liquor store and drown my sorrows in a bottle of vodka.Oh, I'm sorry...is this making you uncomfortable?This is the problem. We walk around the world pretending that everything is just fine. We ask people we see how they are doing and don't really care or wait for their response. It is second nature to us to simply respond with an I'm fine/good/great. When in reality, you probably just got done crying in the bathroom.
So, why even ask when you dont really give a shit or do not want to hear the real answer?
The truth is, we all struggle with saddness every once in a while. So, why can't we be honest about it?? We keep this emotion locked away like it's some sort of disease. Boys are taught from a young age that crying is NOT acceptable behavior, girls are taught that crying is okay but never show your misery in public. You must always put on a happy face. Why does this emotion make people feel so awkward?
Ya know there's a pill for that.Yes, of course there is. Because as soon as someone feels something that is anything less than positive...well...that's just ludicrous.
Here ya go honey. Swallow this pill, it will make you happy again.My point here is that we shouldn't be ashamed of our raw, naturally occurring human emotions. Life is fucking hard...and having bad days is completely normal.
So you have yourself a good, sad, bad, great, happy, miserable, or whatever the fuck kind of day you want to have. If you want to talk about it later, I'll be here to listen. I'm not afraid.
Love to all.
True: Boys are taught when young not to cry it is a sign of weakness and sometimes the same doctrine makes it hard to show any kind of emotion and that's a problem.
ReplyDeleteFalse: The statement that no one really cares how you are or how your day was or wants to here about it.You know that I'm right, Otherwise what is the point of this blog?
If people are really judging you they are NOT your friend because as you pointed out, All of us have our ups and downs and most times Life just doesn't live up to the way they said it would be! That basically Sucks!
However the Sun comes up everyday and the Moon every night, the shit that happens in between is basically irrelevant in the grand scheme of things. We are all part of this Giant Galactic Novel. Each story has a Beginning a middle and an End, all have there moments good and bad some stories are short and others are long but ALL are interesting!
This comment has reached it's End "FOR NOW" but I'll be back to "JUDGE" you yet again at another time and place somewhere, sometime, someplace...
This world we have to dwell in is not an easy place to live happily ever after, and we as individuals have to learn to go with the punches. Stand tall no matter how hard it gets, and to never give up hope of life getting better for us. Not to be phoney, but put a smile on your face, even though inside you may be very discouraged over something at the moment. Find something which will cheer you up, besides booze, or drugs, like an interest you may have, or a hobby which you enjoy doing, or get in your car and take a pleasant drive out into the beautiful countryside, or go visit a close friend or relation you always enjoy being around. You must figure out a way of changing your mood to a more pleasant one, so other people will enjoy being around you. We all suffer with many everyday problems of a normal life, and we must overcome the things which will constantly annoy us if we let them. Make a list of all of the things which you are thankful for, and let your conscience be your guide. Plan ahead on how you're going to handle a difficult situation which you know you will have to face sooner or later. You must keep your mind occupied with good thoughts, and be careful of the things you watch on television which will put you in a bad frame of mind. We can either be our own worst enemy, or be our own best answer to living a better life. Keep your head up, and put on a happy face, and people will want to be around you, for the same reasons you need to be around happy people. You make your life what it is, and nobody can make it better but yourself in the way you handle life no matter how rough it may become. Tomorrow, will always seem like a better day then your worse day, so just go to bed and sleep on it.
ReplyDeleteThank You for the sweet advice but I think you missed the point of my blog. ;)
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